Make work that makes you happy
Nowadays, creating stuff and choosing not to share it online has actually helped me build a more reliable, stronger sense of self-confidence. Not the kind of fragile confidence that comes from getting external validation. Discovering Adam J Kurtz’s work has really helped, too. I love his mantra ‘Nothing Matters’ which I often think about when I feel myself getting too stressed or frustrated over work.
I don’t feel like I have solved or ‘gotten over’ all my confidence issues, but I do feel like a very different person compared to only a year ago. Which is reassuring when you think about how long life is and how long your career can be – there’s no rush to do anything! So if I had to go back and add another rule to the list, it would be: Don’t look at what everybody else is doing!
Nobody is going to look at what you post on Instagram for more than a few seconds before scrolling past. Don’t overthink it, remember that it’s all pretty ephemeral anyway.
It’s pretty crazy how bad your own mind can make you feel when all you’re doing is making a short film. But I think going through that experience was super-valuable, especially if the biggest lesson I got from it was to try and have more perspective and enjoy it more. After all, what’s the point of a personal project if it doesn’t feel nourishing and fulfilling?